Broken Heart Diaries #3

after one year ...
i had this final project and it has a survey a 100 copy lazem awz3a 3ala private sectors ..
so i went to al Raya complex because it has many companies and im sure they will help me ..
i went to many companies .. untill i Clicked the 7282 Floor i went out from the alevator ..
i Said Salam 3alaikom there was lots of offices and all eltftaw 3alay mashof ella wa7ed gamli ...
i was like .. hmm wayha mo `3areeb
him : halla walla tabeny asa3dich bshay ! * smilling and checking me out *
me eeeeeeee ya7leela hatha nafsa elle 3am ga6ait l`3rath baithom ..: me ee walla ma3laik amer hatholi estbyanat o please abykom et7lonha
him : ok .. bs mm 3a6eni like 15 minute ok ?
me : ok .. sure .
him : temshay bel mojma3 malla da3ey tg3den ehni :) kela reyayel ..
i was like haw shfeeh hatha wenta shako : i smiled .. ok no prob
him : give me ur number awal ma ykhalson adeg 3alaich * devil Smile*
me : haa mm ok .. this is my number 99######
him : o sar * sexy wink*
o 6ool ma ana ta7at metdodha w kel sa3a i look into my mobile screen and voclaizing my voice :P
i sat in Caribou had a coffe THen In Coming call 99#####
me : alooo
Him : Hi there * 9ota wayed mestanes * mm 7bait agolich tara khlsaw *
me : ohh siij ayey akth`hom
ga6a3ni : la laaa la walla 7asha aana anzlich
me : ok thanks alot * awwwwwww How Gentle !! *
15 seconds later he was infront of me he was wearing a yellow t shirt and a jeans and smiled
Him : tara wayed feeh bdleyat ;p
me : siiiiiiij ashwa enik getley aswey copy san3a 7ag el dr
Him : ana my copy 76ait 3alaiha a smily face ( smiling widley )
me yatney el tha7ka bs Qmat`ha .. heheheh
Him : btw i saw u before sa7 ? bs thakreni wain ? ..
me : mmm ee ur mom is a friend of My mom
Him : omich meno ?
me : flana leflani ..
him : eeeeeeee ya7leelhaa a3refhaa mara wasalt`ha baitkom bel Qadsia saa7 !!
Me : eeeeee !!
Him : shakhbar`haaa !!
Me : 7emdela tmaaam ..
Him : and ur name is ?
Me : Nada ..
Him : welne3em .. Im m7md ..
Me : yen3am eb 7alek .. fursa sa3eeda .. m7md :)
Him : ana as3ad ok its pleasure to meet u nada * wink * I gotta go back to office before ma yey moderi 7da Qatheeth
me smiling : sure ethnek m3ak thanks aloot for helping me !! khthait feni ajer ;p
Him : walaw ma swait shay ay shay tabena e3yoni lemrakeba ;)
Me : hehehe * blushing *
and he went to his office
while Thoughts were running in my Mind , and a strange feeling in my stomach .. my heart Was beating Very Fast ... he had an effect on me .. omg .. it cant be ..
20 minute lateer :
99###### :
ambaai 3yoniich !!!! Mashala :) .......



ooooooooooooh MYYYYYYY GOOOOOOD Shenooooooooooooooooo !!!!!

Broken Heart Diaries # 2

here where the story Goes ...
I was out with my cousin for Dinner .. My mom Called

MaMa : " aloo ha Mama wainech ? "
Me : " Rada el bait amray mama ? "
MaMa : " moray el bait ba36ech sha`3la .. ge6eyha Bel Nuzha .. Block .. Al @#$$# St. House # 2267
Me : men Baita hatha
MaMa laughing : Refejty e3yalha ezwaq
Me : heheheh ashofiiicih em6arshtneey ;P taben trazezny haaa goley chethey
MaMa : yalla 3an el m9akha t3alay
I picked the things from my House and Drove to Nuzha .. while my cousin next to me..

Nada : etsadgeen mom galtli ge6ay bait refejty 3yal`ha mzayen " laughing "
Retaj : aham shay LOOOOOL ..
I parked eb baithom it was cute house o ga3da a6le3 l`3rath men wra o kent litrally mtkokesa :P
Wella ashoof someone is coming out .. Tall WHite man .. he wasnt cute or Handsome .. he just got the charm .. something like .. Im The Man ..
eltfat 3alaih eb nafseya
He gave me the widest smile ever and spoke : " ekthay ra7tich :D .. "
i didnt reply took the things and kmalt seda then he stood infront of me ..
men meno hatha ?
me : bait el @#@#
Him : eeee welne3em .. 7ag Meno !!!
Me : el Walda !!
him : ee 3a6eni 3anich
i kept standing o madri shyani tna7t ;p
he was yes7ab el Bag o ana as7eba yatney el th7ka bainey o bain nafsey agool ..
shfenii mo rathya a36eh el chees !
Him : :) give me the other bag too
I gave him the other bag and he walked in ..

i came back to my car and my cousin was laughing .. Low 6alba malyon mo a7san :P kaho 6la3lich bs shfeech chethey mo rathya ta36ena el chees !
Me : i dont know .. ;p !!



one Year later ..................... " to be countnio .. "

Broken Heart - Diaries ..#1

Another day ..
faking a smile ..
liying to myself .. I can do it .. i can move on .. i can forget ..
it has been 5 months now since u Broke up with me .. and there`s nothing from u yet .. not even .. >> How r u <<
all i was wondering about and asking myself Everytime i think of u ..
before a week Gabel we broke up ..
u were telling me .. " baby ... Tadreen shkether Walhaan 3alaich ? a7es ShafGaaan !! a7es eb `3a9a .. ? "
O b3d`ha besbo3 .. bedon sabeq enthar .. Meni o 6reej .. I cant do it anymore !! I dont want to get married !! GOD please !!!!
is that an excuse or what ???? .. Silly excuse !!!!!!
marat wedey arfa3 eydey wad3ey 3alaik .. bs akhaf eyser feek shay sij o tet3war ..
yes ana mo methlek .. 7eta lama t3werni o U broke my Heart i still love u .. o still Care about u .. !
Be3eed ..Gereeb ... t7eb a7ad ydeed .. Aw Nesait .... I still Care ..
But My diginty above everything .. and i cant send u anything .. because the last thing i said to u :) " low tlef el denya mara7 telga wa7da nafsi ! " and i hanged up the phone without Saying Farewell Or Good bYe Because it wasnt a - Good Bye - ..
and i Screamed at u .. " kent tel3ab saaa7 !!!! " U replied : " I was playing b4 but now no .. " What the hell that supposed to mean !!
i replied .. " Inshala Estanast m3ay ?! " sarcasticly ..
u remained silent like i always do if u were wrong .....
and i asked Quietly : " well ... DO u want to say anything gabel la Nanhy elle baina "
U answered Quickly : " No " !
:) of course u dont ..

I repeat this Conversation again and again .. every day , every minute since Back then ..
Breaking up is the worst thing that anyone could be through .. y3wer .. yqmet .. tswad el denya b3ainkom .. tetheej el wese3a .. u hate urself .. u loose urself esteem even though if u werent wrong and u were perfect ..

ana adri kelshay b`hal denya ne9eb ..

o everything happens for a Reason ...

Hopefully What`s COming its Better Than B4 ..

Hatha jeza mn 7ab w tha7a, yalait ana fe 7elm w a97a!

please help me to Forget u !!

i cant beleive since we broke up ashofek 9edfa .. !!
the first time we met .. after 2 weeks after that inccident .. you were litrally .. 6ab eb wayhi .. !! 7as bel thanb wela eish !!!
laish everytime i see u etdesh eb wayhi like u are waiting for me to do anything .. ?
tathker ! bel yam3a 3al 3sha we met ?.. and when u saw me when i was with girls 6nasht`hom o ksart rgobtek o enta tamshey !! ya3ni 7eta enas elle matadrey 3la the way u look at me daraw ! o lama g3adt et7os 7wlay o ana ma 76ait 3ainey eb 3ainek..
tadre laish :) ?
la2na methel ma gal 3abdel el majeed .. " 7eta 3yoni 7aram enek te6ale3`ha " o adri hal shay y3thbek :) la2na akthar shay et7eba feni ohwa my eyes ..
o tathker !! yum sheftek .. o i was pretending ena i move on laughing with my friends !! o u were checking on me ..
i see sorrow in ur eyes .. i can feel the pain u are through .. but still :) u didnt make any move to apologize and still u didnt give me any reason for breaking up with me ..
i cant beleive u dont this .. somtimes i hold me mobile i just want to ask u why !!! WHY U DID THis !!! and why if u see me u r acting like u r concerned !!! and u still care !!!!!
but u know what .....!!
everytime i said wow i really move on .. i meet u :) 7eta bel msyad i met u !!!!
i cant beleive it !!
i want to forget i want to move on .. u are Selfish !!! even the concidents its selfish !!!!
I miss u yes!! i want u Yes !! I need u big time .. i wish someday i find a msj From u or a missed call just to check on me .. bs ethaher `3rorek mo emkhalek .. wela fee a7ad `3airey emsaleek .....
منهو حبيبك ..غايتي بس أهنيه .. على حسن خظه عشان أنت حبيبه .. أنا أشهد أن الله يحبه و معطيه اللي عطاه الرب تصبح نصيبه ......
صدقت يا خالد الفيصل ..
RMADHAN KAREEM .. PLEASE FOR EVERYONE WHO READ THIS POST YAD3ELI ENA ALLAH YSA`HELI ANSA IM TIERD !! REALLY TIERD ..
SORRY 3AL 6WALA BS BAFATHFETH :)

A letter to Abdullah Rowaished ..

Dear Abdullah Rwaished ..

I used to Listen to ur songs when i was Madly in love with him .. we used to play ur song in his car while we are chatting and .. u know what when there`s a part of a song I Really Love i shut my beloved one and High the Volume and litrally Shout out the Words : " Kel ma 6rait Esmek yt`3anna kel Ma feni " while looking in his eyes and he`s holding my hand laughing at me and my carzy attitude ..

now he is gone for good ..

and ur voice Remeinds me of him .. his sence .. his laugh .. the way he look at me .. after everything we`ve been through after he was " ashofek 7elm Wel Denya 7wailnek reebe3 akthar " im singing " ana mo awal wala akher 7abeb bel nehaya ma3 7abeba yftreg "

and days after days crying myself to sleep with ur song " wa7sht el Dar y7bayeb Wa7sht el dar wa7shna Galbek el 6ayeb ... wa7sht eldar"

... and if i cried more i hear : "Mayhem jafef domo3ek mayhem ethwe3ey shmo3ek ma buga shay ya Galbi YEswa Dam3a ! "

at last Abdullah Rowaished u `ve been the symobol of my love ,happiness , myseirey

Thanks for sharing me my life ....... Ur always will be "The Voice Of My Love Story "