Broken Heart - Diaries ..#1

Another day ..
faking a smile ..
liying to myself .. I can do it .. i can move on .. i can forget ..
it has been 5 months now since u Broke up with me .. and there`s nothing from u yet .. not even .. >> How r u <<
all i was wondering about and asking myself Everytime i think of u ..
before a week Gabel we broke up ..
u were telling me .. " baby ... Tadreen shkether Walhaan 3alaich ? a7es ShafGaaan !! a7es eb `3a9a .. ? "
O b3d`ha besbo3 .. bedon sabeq enthar .. Meni o 6reej .. I cant do it anymore !! I dont want to get married !! GOD please !!!!
is that an excuse or what ???? .. Silly excuse !!!!!!
marat wedey arfa3 eydey wad3ey 3alaik .. bs akhaf eyser feek shay sij o tet3war ..
yes ana mo methlek .. 7eta lama t3werni o U broke my Heart i still love u .. o still Care about u .. !
Be3eed ..Gereeb ... t7eb a7ad ydeed .. Aw Nesait .... I still Care ..
But My diginty above everything .. and i cant send u anything .. because the last thing i said to u :) " low tlef el denya mara7 telga wa7da nafsi ! " and i hanged up the phone without Saying Farewell Or Good bYe Because it wasnt a - Good Bye - ..
and i Screamed at u .. " kent tel3ab saaa7 !!!! " U replied : " I was playing b4 but now no .. " What the hell that supposed to mean !!
i replied .. " Inshala Estanast m3ay ?! " sarcasticly ..
u remained silent like i always do if u were wrong .....
and i asked Quietly : " well ... DO u want to say anything gabel la Nanhy elle baina "
U answered Quickly : " No " !
:) of course u dont ..

I repeat this Conversation again and again .. every day , every minute since Back then ..
Breaking up is the worst thing that anyone could be through .. y3wer .. yqmet .. tswad el denya b3ainkom .. tetheej el wese3a .. u hate urself .. u loose urself esteem even though if u werent wrong and u were perfect ..

ana adri kelshay b`hal denya ne9eb ..

o everything happens for a Reason ...

Hopefully What`s COming its Better Than B4 ..

Hatha jeza mn 7ab w tha7a, yalait ana fe 7elm w a97a!